Saturday, November 13, 2010

Baby Steps. Slow and Steady wins the race. Etc. Etc.

Energy begats energy. I like to say that little ditty. I don't think I made it up -- I'm not that clever, but I can't find where I found it originally. Anyway, good energy begats good energy. Negative energy begats crappy energy. I know that instinctively, why don't I always pay attention???

Been thinking positive lately. Don't know if it's the Amitriptyline (happy pills) my doctor convinced me to try (and which, miraculously my insurance company actually agreed to pay for -- they dropped "mental health" coverage about a year ago. Idiots, but that's for another blog on another day) -- or whether it's the change in the weather (I love cooler Autumnal weather) -- or whether it's just the good energy from having one of my art pieces (finally) accepted into an art show at the local University: but whatever it is, I'm glad to be on it: this positive thinking roll I'm on.

Wow. That was bad grammar I'm sure. My high school English teacher would faint right about now, but really, this is my blog I can do in it what I wish, eh? I've never been a huge fan of following all the rules anyway. And hey -- if my idol, Dean Koontz, can change the rules by using lots of in-a-row-of-comma-separated-adjectives to most wonderfully describe his nouns in his books, maybe I can change the rules by making lots of dashes and colons used together popular!!! *insert mischievous smiley here*.

K. Back to my intended subject this fine fall morning. I think we had a soft freeze last night. Baby Steps.

I took more baby steps this week in my quest to make more money/be more fulfilled: Stopped into a different Pizza Hut than the one I'd applied at to see if they had any ideas on how I could push through my application. Found out from that assistant manager that the manager at the other PH had been fired (so the rumors were true). This current A-M took a liking to me and so did one of the other employees, so they had me come in and speak to their manager. He has since spoken with the district manager and pulled my application from the other store and I've started all over with the paperwork (to check my state driving record). I have a really good feeling about this: I should be able to start delivering pizza's part time in a couple of weeks and hopefully by the end of December I can be caught up on my bills and back to a positive value in my money account! I'm so far in the red right now (farther than I've been in cash flow in years) that I cry alot (more than usual). Am like $2800 in debt to my boss in payday advances, not to mention the $3000 I'm in debt to "loan sharks" (as my dad calls the car title and payday loan places I have to beg from). One of these days I'd really like to have $5000 in an emergency fund at the bank, $1000 cushion in my checking account, and be able to pay every bill the exact day it comes in the mail. My boyfriend does this (except he's got like $20,000 in an emergency fund in the bank). I'm not greedy, and I'm not full of self-control (like he is), so I'll never be that cushioned. I like to enjoy this life.

Anyway, that's baby step one. Baby step two was to borrow money from said boyfriend to print out prints of some of my favorite photos and print up a bunch of my greeting cards. I've just now got to buy some supplies and actually get my table set up at the local Farmer's Market. Waited too long this week to get ahold of the manager of said market for today's show, but I've got Tuesday, next Saturday, and maybe the following Tuesday left to try and sell my stuff in person. Anything that doesn't sell will finally be put up on that website I created months ago. One of these days I will have a nice side-business selling my "art" which makes me a couple thousand dollars a month. Positive thinking there, but hey, there's some truth to the good old saying: Go Big or Go Home. I'm tired of going home. I'm not determined to Go Big!

When my boss retires in about 5-10 years, I've got to be self-sufficient in working for myself so I won't have to get another job working for anyone else ever again. He's the best darn boss in the entire universe and I'll never find another one as good. And lemme tell you, I've had some of the worst bosses in the State of Texas, and do not want to ever deal with that again. No sirree!

Am also toying with the idea to go back to school (online) to get my Graphic Artist degree. That would help me both freelance and with my greeting cards.

So. To finally shut up and stop rambling, I'll post one of my "pieces" here. Just cause I love you all. ;)